A Letter from a Friend

Dear One,

I know you. I know what it is like to be you. When you feel lost and alone, I am with you because I, too, felt lost and alone. No one needs to testify to what humanity is like. I understand it fully.

Today I felt used and abused. The people kept coming to me, wanting more magic. They wanted more healings and signs. They claimed to believe, but I knew they didn’t understand. They did not want me. They made me feel like a circus side-show. I knew not to trust them. They weren’t hearing what I was saying. Those in the market weren’t hearing what they were being called to be. The people only wanted magic.

These have been some tough days. Today, I let my anger get away from me. It made me wild with rage to see them desecrating my Father’s house. I made a whip and drove them out of the temple. My Father deserved better than that. They forgot again who He is. They had forgotten how much He loves them and what He wants from them…what He wants for them. So, my anger won today. When they tell stories about me after I am gone, they will remember my anger. They may not remember to tell you how it drained me and left me feeling sad because I had not found a better way.

My Father’s house is a place of prayer. It is a sanctuary where everyone is welcome, where people can bring their hearts and their problems, gratitude, and tears. My Father’s house is a home where all are welcome. I hope they remember that as much as they remember my anger.

Yes, I know what humanity is like. I know because I lived it. No one needs to tell me what anguish feels like, I know. I know how it feels to be misunderstood because I was. I know how it feels when you know only loneliness and to believe your life doesn’t matter. I felt that loneliness often. I even know what it feels like when God seems far away and you doubt. I doubted too. I wondered if I was wrong. I wondered if He really loved me. I wondered if I was doing what He wanted from me. I wondered if I mattered at all.

I know what humanity is like. I lived it. I know what it is like to beg God to intervene and feel your prayers unanswered. I knew frustration. I know what it is like to lose love, to have the One you love turn away. That happened to me too. I also know what it is like to love another person with my whole heart and have death take them from me. I have felt the hole of sorrow and emptiness left in your heart and in your soul. I know what it is like to have a heart that is broken. Mine was broken too.

Yes, I know what humanity is like. I lived it. Please remember that when you are afraid, lonely, and broken. I am not far away when you are lost and alone. I am right here beside you. I am right here within you. I know life can be challenging. You do not have to walk the road alone. I am with you. Close your eyes, breathe deeply, free your mind, come to oneness with your heart. I will be there waiting. I will be there to dry your tears, hold you, and heal you until you feel whole enough to try again. I am always here waiting because I know sometimes it is hard to be human. 

Don’t leave me on the cross, don’t leave me in the Church, don’t remember me only in the tabernacle. I am with you now and always because I know what humanity is like. I lived it.

–Jesus

Inspired by the Word of God, written by the hand of Gwen